I woke up with what I can only describe as a cloud of heaviness over me this morning. It’s a cloud that has been descending for quite some time, but this morning it was heavier and more oppressive than ever.
Plain and simple, I have too much on my plate.
teacher of my kids.
jewelry designer/small business owner
I constantly feel like I don’t have enough hours in my day. Entire days slip by, and my overwhelming feeling is that I’m ‘too busy’ or ‘I didn’t get enough done.’ I have felt too busy for friends, for family. Even in the “fun” times, I’m thinking ahead to what needs to be taken care of when the fun ends.
Yeah. Not a happy way to live. Not a peaceful or joyful way to live. And definitely not how I know God would have me to live.
So, what is it that can give?
I have been praying that God would
in the direction He would have me to go. I have been doing a lot of talking and praying, but not a whole lot of listening. The answer has been coming to me in bits and pieces for a few weeks now, but I have been afraid to listen. In talking with my husband this morning, all of the sudden it was settled and things were clear. I need to take a hiatus from my etsy shop. Most likely a permanent one.
Sigh of relief.
Moment of clarity.
I am almost 3 years in with my jewelry business. I have been patient, and I have worked very hard. And my little business is just not growing. Maybe I shouldn’t even be this honest, but it’s my nature. Not only is my business not growing, but my sales are actually worse than ever. The tough part is that even without many sales, having a viable etsy shop is a full time job that doesn’t necessarily pay off.
Please don’t misunderstand me. I’m a big girl and I can handle this. I don’t feel sorry at all.
I feel relieved.
I feel excited about what comes next.
I feel adventurously expectant.
I know that this is more of a beginning than an end.
So, for now I am moving in the direction of my blog. I’m not sure what direction my jewelry will take. I’m not even sure what direction my blog will take. The only thing I am sure of is that I am ready to ask God,
“What’s next , Papa?”
P.S. My shop will remain open through the end of the weekend. If there’s something you would like, you can use the code HIATUS for 25% off your purchase.