I have come to realize that I am not a very goal oriented person. I can’t remember one time in my life when I have set a goal for myself and really worked to achieve it. I didn’t “work” to finish high school, I just kind of survived it. I was in the top of my class, but not because I worked hard at it……I just was because I was. I didn’t “work” AT ALL in college and therefore did not finish. I couldn’t correlate the connection between the hard work for 4 (or more) years and the degree & job that would perhaps one day come out of it. I cannot remember a time in my life when I was willing to work hard for something that may not pay off immediately.
Even in my weight loss, my goal has been an arbitrary “get fit & get healthy” goal. This has not been without benefits and I will acknowledge that I have seen fruits for my labor. But, I will also admit that this “goal” has led to periods of hard dieting & exercise, interspersed with complacency and resting in the fact that I am not 300 lbs. anymore. Such complacency almost ineveitably leads to some sliding back into old ways and slight weight gain, at which time I start in hard again. I do realize that there are cycles in life and that getting off track IS somewhat normal. But, I also know that if I had a goal in mind, I would have something to work for. I have never set a goal to be physically the best that I can be. I have always just been happy to rest in knowing that I am not as big as I once was.
|Me, 10 years ago|
|2 Years ago|